“Repentence is not saying your sorry,

and then continuing in that sin.

That is justification, and not repentence”

~Our Pastor Scott

Metamelomai: remorse for accounts of sin(s) to change ones mindfullness
(but not ones heart)

Metanoeo: deliberately making changes of mindfulness and change of heart due to learning from being sinful

Metanoia: with change of purpose, mindfulness and life style while devotedly promising to avoid sin
(truest form of repentence)

Through loss we receive hidden value
An inception into the worth of lessons
Where we each learn our significant wisdom and benefits of priceless consequences…

Revelations Cloth

Vitality loomed across the soul of question-

Paving pathways of uncertainty she vied
to know the essence of revelation’s cloth
and the tenderness of stillness’s within…

© Poetry by: Victoria L. McColley

I wrote that little diddy back in November of 2010, and now here it is June 2012 and I really embrace the depth of what this means to me. Through yesterday’s service and the impactual words of Our Pastor Scott, and too in reflection of all the devote sermons of worship, I now see there is much much more to forgiveness, and being forgiven, and too in forgiving oneself than being sorry and having God toss everything out into the ocean of forgiveness.

I am a prime example (I think) of these new words I have learned while sinking into the scriptures Pastor Scott planted. First word of the day I learned through trying to understand repentance is Metamelomai (μεταμέλομαι): remorse for accounts of sin(s) to change ones mindfullness (but not ones heart) I feel I have been here as a teen and young adult, and I have had many changes of heart along the way so I nailed this over and over-shame on me! But the good thing about this stage of mindful sins is that I see I moved onto Metanoeo (μετανοέω): deliberately making changes of mindfulness and change of heart due to learning from being sinful.

WOW!! How many times have I successfully accomplished this?! I have committed many sins, and too I have learned from them all to never repeat them. I still need to work on this though since the hardest sin for me to refrain from is turning the other cheek. How do you show love to some strangeness that flap jacks into your world for a brief fleeting moment? See there? I was being insulting with humor…hummm…well the good thing is, for me anyway all these years of being in sin and learning and growing have brought me into the 3rd new word! Metanoia (μετάνοια): with change of purpose, mindfulness and life style while devotedly wholeheartedly promising to avoid sin (truest form of repentance)

This is soooo impactual to me!! I feel like this all ties together with all the sermons that I have been sponging into my heart and soul from Our Pastor Scott. I should also give mention to “mind thoughts’ Pastor was talking about our thoughts need to be mindful too. I have danced with fantasy, I never gave it a 2nd thought being I write in an array of genres, so this gives me a little bit of confusion since those types of thoughts are sinful, so does that mean my mind is sinning to write romance? I am at a loss on that since I don’t know if it is. I then wonder too if my seeing the body as beautiful art is a sin-shocking I know right?!

Well either way this is all garnering me into a new leaf! A deeper root! I want to channel my muses into a new direction with deeper and more meaningful purpose. But more importantly weeding out the garbage…I have some awesome mind clarity on this!! Pastor Scott made it so clear at yesterdays worship how being around bad people will take away a persons goodness. I know, I been there & have done this…I do not like being around bad people, or people who have ill will inside their hearts to others. It is so draining to be around them, to listen to them-all of it. I love being around everyone at this church. I never could get anything quite right in my life no matter how hard I tried, and today I feel like a veil of new realizations has been presented to me as to the reasons why. It’s like my friend Audrey would always say (& Pastor Scott too) put God 1st. Through Love’s Bounty All Created By God xx